I think I am a fairly positive, glass is half full person BUT I definitely have my days when life seems to be anything BUT sunshine and rainbows! Several nights ago I had a terrible headache and it was time for dinner. My precious Bethany wanted to do watercolor painting which seems to be her thing these days. It was almost time to eat and I really wanted to get the table cleared for dinner BUT my sweet 5-year-old wanted to paint. SO instead of responding in love to her request to make me another rainbow picture, I think I already have 86. I snapped at her. I told her, "I didn't want her to make a mess and I already had more rainbow pictures than I could possibly put up."
As I looked at her she began to wilt. My words had hurt her feelings, she almost started to cry. I took a deep breath and thought, "Bethany just wanted to make me another rainbow picture, is that really a BIG deal?!" I walked away and had a few words with God. I asked Him to help me respond in love even when my head was killing me and I was tired. He did and is always so good to help in a moments notice, I then got a much-needed attitude adjustment. Bethany sat down and began painting and singing, all seemed good in her world again.
Our kids are so resilient and forgiving aren't they? I felt like such a terrible, unloving Mom! I wanted to cry at how I crushed her spirit, how I let my headache and uncontrolled emotions get the best of me. I was reminded by Bethany that just as she loves me with a very pure and unconditional love, my Heavenly Father loves me that way BUT so MUCH MORE!!
We all have days that are not sunshine and rainbows, life can be so hard BUT that doesn't mean we let those days get the best of us. I mean there is nothing wrong with being upset or needing to cry, get angry and vent BUT take that to God. Take it to a trusted friend, a mentor don't take it out on your kids. I think we all have done it from time to time. I have to ask my kids for forgiveness often. The beautiful thing is that they area always so quick to forgive. Most of the time they have forgotten about it almost immediately.
I LOVE that Bethany loves rainbows. She knows the story of Noah and the flood, she looks at life as if it is all sunshine and rainbows. I often look at life through the lens of my pain and suffering or what is missing. Yet I have faith that is deep-rooted in the promises of God, so shouldn't I look at life differently? God gave Noah a rainbow as a sign of His promise that He would never flood the earth again in Genesis 7-9. I like Noah can be reminded that there are many rainbows in my life and am asking God to help me change how I see things so that I can focus more on the rainbows instead of the storms. Although I know God uses both.
God has given me the great privilege to share my heart and His word on Thursdays to a special group of women at Refresh Bible Study. What a sweet blessing and is definitely a BIG ray of sunshine in my life!
What promises can you remember today? Ask God to remind you of the rainbows in your life. I bet there are more than you realize.
If you are struggling today, my prayer is that you will be reminded that God has a plan through this season and in this storm. And like after many a storm there will come some sunshine and maybe even a rainbow!
Praising God for what began as a tough week but has ended with sunshine, rainbows and reminders of His great promises!
Because of His promises... I can Live For More,