As I have been studying Genesis in BSF this past several months so much of it has been a great encouragement and a constant reminder of Gods provision. I am reminded that just as He provided for Abraham and was faithful to His word and promises, He is the same loving, promise keeping God to me, Cassi today. That brings me great hope and joy! I know often times people think that the God of the Bible is not the same as He is today. But I am here to tell you that I know He is!! There has been so much evidence in my life of how this personal God has loved me, provided for me, filled in the gaps for me and has been incredibly faithful even when my life made no sense!!
Several weeks ago as I was studying Genesis 15 and as I read verse one: After this, the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision: "Do not be afraid, Abram I am your shield, your very great reward."
In case you are new the Bible. Abram whose name would later be changed to Abraham who would go on to become the father of the nation Israel had just saved his nephew Lot after he was captured by the kings of the east and was fearful that they may initiate some sort of attack, retaliation for what he had done. What I LOVE about these verses is that God knew Abram's heart and fears. He knows yours and mine too!! SO God came to Abraham and said, "DO NOT BE AFRAID, Abram I am your shield, your very great reward." I love the reminder of God knowing our hearts and how he is so intimately connected to his children. He knows yours and mine too and I feel like he is saying to me today, DO NOT BE AFRAID, Cassi I am your shield, your very great reward." The idea of God being my shield, my great protector, I could not ask for a greater defense!!! What is even cooler is that the "reward" he is talking about means "ever-increasing" so it's not like this is it, it just keeps getting better, and increases! There are great rewards in living for God and His rewards are based on his economy and not this world's. Some rewards we will not experience until Heaven. Gods son Jesus is our greatest reward! This verse has the word satisfaction included in the translation which means: "the presence of ENOUGH" WHOA!! It struck me as I read that and thought about it over and over that Gods presence should be enough! But is it really?? I have to admit that there are many days when I rejoice in God's very evident presence in my life and then as if I am fickle my heart feels very far away from the presence of God. Has my life changed, is God really far away?? Absolutely NOT! He is always close but in those days where He doesn't feel close, it is I who have walked away from His presence.
So how on earth do I rest in His presence? I am realizing now more than ever that it is a conscious choice to rest in His presence. I have made it my prayer that His PRESENCE would be ENOUGH!! I continue to spend daily time in his word and stay in constant fellowship with him through prayer and connection with other believers. SO if you are feeling far from God today, maybe you are struggling in your marriage, having job difficulties or perhaps you have just suffered a major loss financially or in some other way? If you feel lonely and wonder if your life will ever have great purpose again. I so get that and can understand your pain in many ways. I too am still wrestling through my new normal (which has been almost 18 months so should not feel so "new") and am praying and begging God to help me be more content in this place!! This place of widowhood and single parenting certainly is not what I signed up for!! Many days I long for my love and my old life but more days now I am good and I am clinging to the promises of God and just like He did with Abraham, he was faithful to His word and HE accomplished the things he told Abraham he would do in his life so I am counting on that same faithfulness in my life too!! If you find yourself feeling lonely, overwhelmed or just need a friend, maybe you once walked with God and feel like His presence is gone. I pray you will cry out to God who loves you and longs to be your shield and your great reward! If you need prayer I'd be honored to pray for you!
Praying for you that Gods PRESENCE WILL BE ENOUGH!
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Psalm 28:7 "The LORD is my STRENGTH and my SHIELD my heart trusts in Him and I am helped"